well today deff wants a good day for me....

first off i had to wake up early hehe witch really is fine but the reason i had to wake up early was what made it suck..well you see i had to bring my dad to bradly hospital cuz he needed to get an colanoscopy done.. anyways on the way there dad and i were talking bout everything except what hes going for... so i found out that my lil baby cousin whos like 6 months old is now in fouster care cuz her mom ran away again and my uncle just got arrested for who knows what and will be in jail for who knows how long.. so ya that really sucks. but now to my dad when i was bout to drop him off he lot me that he might have pylops witch could be cancer.. so when i was in the car with him i acted as if i was fine cuz i dont need my dad worring about if im going to be ok and all that fun stuff.. but the second he left my car i broke down crying.. i havent cryed in a long time but i just couldnt help it. its soo scary for me to think that my father might have cancer...expecaly knowing that my dads dad died form colan cancer...so i donno... my dad is my world i dont know what i would do if nething happens to him and hes really stubern like me so if he does have it hes not going tho chemo or nething.. so hell just wait it out and let it kill him.. he says give me meds to keep me out of pain and just let him die and hell be happy. he dont want his family to be resposnsabul for all his medical bills, and sure it will chemo will keep him alive for a few yrs but how good will thos yrs be....

so with all that in mind i had to go to work and act as if nothings wrong when i dieing on the inside.. so the first thing i do when i get out if work is call my rents house.. and my mom picks up cuz daddys sleeping.. come to find out he did have three poylops. they removed all of them but one of them had to get corderised because it attached its self to a artery.. so now we just have to wait to see whats going on.. i really hope everythings will be ok and this will all be just a scare and we can go back to are normal life with no fears of whats gunna happen next..

well its been a while since iv written in here.. lets see whats been going on..

eric asked me out october 7th and of course i said yes and im soo happy :) so now its been 2 weeks hehe and we basically spend everyday 2gether and its great honeslty i thought i would start getting tired of him cuz unfortunately i tends to get tired of peoplebut its not at all like that w him. i look forward every night when i get to see him again and hold him in my arms.. iv been really happy and all but between working in gillford the stress w my work and my checks and now getting my period im kinda freaking out so iv had a few smokes.. im not planning on starting back but right now its calming me down i need it for a lil..

ya i so dont know how i still have a job i mean one day im yelling at my boss then i keep on calling her a few times a day basicly every day then last week i email my boss cuz im always getting my check late and everything here it is:

Dear Jackie,
This is Jenna, I know that I have been pestering you about my check but you must understand this is my only source of income and when it comes in late it messes up everything. For the last two or three months I haven't received my pay check on time or remotely close to the date I should of gotten it. And to top it off, my last check, as you know, was late, incomplete, and not signed, and still two weeks latter I haven't received the check for last months live in. i understand that your check are made by anther company but their mess ups shouldn't inconvenience me or your other employees. I'm sure you know this but there is a Labor Law stating, each employee is to receive their pay checks on the date set by the employer. If check come in late to other company's they will personally write out their employees a check to make sure they will get their check when they should. I personally will not notify the Labor Board because your services are needed by others. Just keep
it in mind that you are in violation of the states regulations.

Sincerely,
Jenna

but ya i have my job and i got both my pay check so everythings all good basicly i still got screwed over $100 so now im gunna email her again and well see what she says